| Competition Coming up!!! |
[Nov. 21st, 2008|07:18 pm] |
UGh ..so i have been crazy busy with my life right now. Getting rid of bad friends and gaining new ones.
Falling into an unrequited love relationship and the pains that follow. As well as puttin my self into a drama competition to find good people and because i like to design clothes. So thats why im designing the costumes.
Also im really into dramas now. Mostly Korean but i love Japanese and taiwan ones too!!! lol
:Sigh: but im getting tired. Mentally i feel im so lost some times. SO unloved by those surrounded by me. I do so much for people and when i need help no one tries to help me. SO i wonder what is life gonna be like after high school. I know i want to leave florida but...do the people change?!!
Maybe? Doesnt really matter im leaving the U.S behind.... my aunt's taking me to S. Korea. Than Japan, maybe than i'll be happy. Who knows.. it'l sure be different! lol =D |
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[Nov. 11th, 2008|12:38 am] |
Oh so i have a costume designing and construction competiton coming up. Kind of worried. Have pretty big competition. And i thought i had the story i wanted but now im unsure. Im not real happy with it. So i have to try others, and i need to chose a book by friday. GAH.. craziness.
Any one know anything about costume designs? |
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| Ugh.. such a long time. |
[Oct. 21st, 2008|06:39 pm] |
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So its been a long time since i been on. I must have been forgotten.
But it really hasnt been my fault. I been in and out of the hospital and im taking AP courses that want to kill you with either stress or papers. lol
I just felt like writing something because im trying to waste more time before my Physics paper i have to write. :sigh: Imiss this site. =D
Well i'll write back again. I hope i can catch up on everything. XD |
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| To say dying is out of the equation..than why do I feel Im to late. |
[Jul. 2nd, 2008|10:21 pm] |
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Well I just went to the doctors earliar today.
It seems that I was forced to..I try to avoid doctors or hospitals.
We don't really have to money at the moment due to all the surguries and stuff I keep going thru.
Well since I was about to faint after waiting a week the doc said I had low blood pressure and something going on in my ear or whatever.
I am so USED to pain its past tense.
So I have to add more salt to my diet or what not. And drink water and gatorade like no tomorrow.
And they to BLOOD away from me. Uh!! I hate giving blood, but this time I was willing.
I couldnt get up without my head swooning, my heart racing and blurry vision.
OH well.
So I live on. But seems I am slowly breaking. At such an early age.
My doctor was jokin when she said I'm slowly dying,
Im starting to believe she is right.
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| This is me. How much can you take before you leave like everyone else? |
[Jun. 24th, 2008|07:52 am] |
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Okay so.. IM BACK.
And Im not completely sure if I am going to write everything in this one post so lets see...
OH first off would like to say HI. Havent done that in a bit. haha
Okay now down to business!!
First off just to make this post semi-upsetting. You know how I had surgery was out of school for almost 1 full semester and everything. Also how the school would NOT give me a tutor, work, help.. just about anything in that category. Well so yeah..I am officially still a JUNIOR. Meaning I have two more years left of high school. Because I have no clue if I told any one this but I was suppose to graduate a year early so when i said junior I was really a Sophmore in the 4 yr term. But i guess since the school called me a junior I got used to the term. But Oh well.
Im a Junior OFFICIALLY now. I have been in high school for two years and its incredible how you would think I passed. Im not gradutaing early due to the fact that if i am missing credits. I need 7 or something. Oh well so I'll graduate with my class. Not that bad. I live. But iwanted OUT already. But man I was SOO [!!!!!] close.
Well lets not mention that ever again..okay? PROMISED. =D
But heyy its not like Iwas really left back.. I just not fast forwarding any more. SO. YEAH. I slightly cried over that.
OH and how the best english teacher and possible friend is leaving in July toTampa. We were gonna meet before she left to Panera Bread. But being myself I forgot I couldnt go because I had rehab so... SUCKED.
ANd so I have no phone number and cant call her because MY phone broke because Im a dork. Make sense? lol
Well this is good enough for one posting the next one is gonna be about my love life.. and lets say I still wanna shoot myself inthe head!!
So sick of me yet?
P.S. Can i just say that awakening because of your period at around 6:30-ish when you just went to sleep at 2-almost 3 in the morning is just annoying. And now I cant sleep. So Guess what its 8:20 and wide awake. SUCKS. |
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| Almost time... |
[Jun. 3rd, 2008|10:14 pm] |
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for this whole thing to be done. So many things are ending soon and I am completely and utterly happy. Soon another year of school will end. Also I should be back to walking soon.. well atleast sometime during the summer. Im so happy for that. Actually I should not be online right now I should be exercising my knee..but I am being lazy which isnt good if I want to walk so I' ll hurry this up. =D
Also once school ends then I will be able to FINALLY catch up on all my cyber things I have to do. Especially since I have like 16 messages just on LJ alone.. like 400 messages on Yahoo and 41 on AOL. Then I have other things so Im going loco. Well I have to study for my Computer college career course final. Its tomorrow so ... yeah I should study. =D
Then after that on thurday at 12:30 IM FREE. Okay.
By lovelies . Im out of time. ----> |
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| Going crazii! |
[May. 14th, 2008|08:44 pm] |
Okay so its has been a while since I have been on. And I am actually not even suppose to be on because i have so much things to do. But seriously i just wanted to let my frustrations out on how muchmy life sucks right now.
Im also been so busy i havent been able to write back to any one. So SORRY!! Believe me once Im done with this. [14 days] Believe me I'll never do it for a while.
So this short post was really meant just to say sorry and that with school and rehab ..I want to shoot my self!! [hypothetically of course.]
And the worst part is I cant read Rurouni Kenshin! Its getting so good and i cant. GAH!!!!!!!!!
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| Annoyed as hell + Tired |
[May. 9th, 2008|04:11 am] |
Well it is around 4:15 in the morning. I cannot sleep and my ass has rehab tomorrow at 3:30. Though its late in the afternoon Im still sick of this insomia i have. OH! And I go to rehab [ if any one cares] because I had surgery [2] in my right knee and lost the ability to walk for a bit it seems. But I am working my but off for it.
On another note... another semester of school is done. All that money wasted cause of my leg. Well...it is not really wasted because this leg crap was SO not my fault. I was just sitting on the floor watching the news and when I got up my knee gave out. :sigh: ANd my *beep* *beep*-hole aquaitances of the time being seem to think Im not worth the time.When if even my biggest rival needed help i would have helped them in a minute or two. [haha. Got to atleast make them sweat it.] OH well this vampire movie I am watching on sci-fi is real fake looking. And Im feeling very aolne in this frickin' house. :sigh: roommates suck. lol And they are family. =P
So you think..why not lets drink with your younger sibling. Especially when your sharing a big ol' house together. Well they were nice too. haha. Im tired Im OUT. |
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| Trying to waste time. |
[Nov. 15th, 2007|08:37 pm] |
Well I should be writing or at least thinking about my research paper I have to do. Because I doubt my professor well give me ANOTHER extension. But Im being lazii!! I have no motivation at all at the moment. And then their is my project in my Photography class I have to do. And if its good it will be entered into an art show. But it's a still life which killled my idea. So now I need to think of what inanimate object represents racial equality or just equality in general. The theme is MLK jr. OHHH!! i can use a Yin and Yang sign maybe? Might be a good idea. Means balance right. Does equality and balance go with each other?I have no clue but. Heyy look see me writing this did help.
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Hey maybe I should try with my Chemistry class I took.. because of my suppose hidden love for science. I like science.. well Im interested in it. I just always hated learning the formulas in school. Well I think I will go. I actually atleast used this time fairly well. So YAY for me!!!
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To0dlez!!! |
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